12:41 p.m. - Monday, Sept. 07, 2009
Why am I so stupid?
I can never just leave things alone. I seem to love to set myself up. I may be being dramatic (Who me? Dramatic, noooooooo)So, I saw someone on FB who probably would like to see me dead or not, no not even that, he doesn't think about me at all...and I friended him. Why? What is the friggin' point? I could have just ignored. Just kept it moving, but I looked for him. AND FOUND HIM. So, here we go again. And of course he's better than me at music.
So what's this about? I had a CRUSH on him in like 6th to 8th grade and he did me dirty alittle bit in highschool, but I still liked him and wanted him to still be my friend, but like turned into hate because he didn't care at all and then I called him and said I forgive you after years and years of me harassing him for justice-or just for him to still like me (if he ever really did) and no. The only thing that accomplished was me being set free from unforgiveness which was enough. Then YEEEEAAAAARRRRRSSS later he shows up in my town and says something to me, which I was like OMG, he's here. And I acted a fool (He called for a cab and I was like, where do you need to go-Like an sick infatuated puppy) We had a pleasant exchange that turned wierd and I wanted to discuss it, but couldn't. And then he disappeared out of my life again (not that he ever really was IN my life). And now I found him and friend requested him and I wish I could take it back. Because we are two very different people who have lived two very seperate lives and I still do not like this affect he has over me. Whatever, it just goes to show, I still have much growing up to do.
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